It's been awhile. . .

It seems like the only time I write here is when I update my other blog. Life has so many twists and turns, you'd think I'd know that at my age :) What do you do when life slaps you in the face...big time? You either a.run and hide, b.fight back, or c.reach out to the One who gave you life in the first place. Wish I always chose "C"....Too many times I do all 3 saving "c" for last. Our family has been through alot in this past year, I've written of much of it on here, some of it I haven't and won't...it's too private. Let's just say it's been a rough road and doesn't look to be any smoother any time too soon. I love my family, each and EVERY one of them. Some I'd like to shake the stuffing out of until they see the light...but I still love 'em. Some I just can't get enough of...some I can hardly be around...but I still love 'em. Bet that's how God sees us too at times. So what do I do? How do I handle the days when I want to scream and shout and tell someone how stupid they are and how much they need the REAL Christ in their life? I pray...and I pray some more and I tell GOD how I feel, cuz if I tell that person, well, it won't be pretty and they probably never will know the Jesus I know. "everyone needs compassion, everyone needs forgiveness, a love that's never failing"

Lord Jesus, speak to me, fill me with love and compassion for the ones who need it most. Make me willing to be willing, and able to forgive. Give me peace where there is unsettledness and hope where there is despair. Show me how to love like You do, unconditionally and without restraint. I love you, Lord.